I had been doing "onesies" - one drink only. This is not new to me, but lately I did more of that, and was more aware of the process. I start to really enjoy that one drink. Sip by sip, savouring. 

At the same time, I've been practicing intuitive eating - I'm on day 9 of 70. And I am starting to get the hang of it! This week, I was able to regularly stop in the middle of my meal if I feel I had enough. This makes me feel happy, and I am discovering a new freedom: I start to feel free to eat what I want whenever I want, to enjoy it, and to trust my self to stop when I have enough. Free from the habit. Wow. I suddenly have all these newfound options: now I can choose to eat before dinner if I'm hungry, because I know I will stop when full when I do eat (and I know I will only eat if I'm hungry). Or not eat even if the time has come for lunch. Today, I took a rich lunch, full options, including chocolate mousse. I ate half of everything, intensely enjoying every bite. What a wonderful freedom! I am still in the middle of practicing, it's not always easy, but I feel great progress.

But what does this have to do with onesies?

Because this intuitive eating experience, together with having onesies, has thought me something new. New way of enjoying food and alcohol. Freedom. I don't have to run my life as a project. I can trust my self. And I can enjoy, guilt free! This is THE reason for me to learn moderation - and what I call intuitive drinking and eating.

I now know to really pin this down, next to practice, I will really need to continue to learn to deal with other stuff in my life effectively (e.g. negative emotions, exhaustion, stress...). But the promise is great. I had a taste of it. I want it!

Be well and take good care of your selves!